Something New and Explosively Unexpected || Rowan

"You are the most unreasonable human being in the world."

Her reflection stared at her with big purple eyes that could not hide the tear in the corners of them. She felt like she should despise herself, how could she say that? I wouldn't say no to that. Who was she kidding? Surely she wouldn't have said no to Jasmine at any other time in the world, in her life but now? She broke... she broke up with Sean just recently, she broke his heart, this wasn't fair to herself and most of all to him. Because for heaven's sake she couldn't keep up with his life and her own and now she said yes to Jasmine?! JASMINE?! How did it end up here, she remembered the flirty comments, it just started to feel like normal that Jaz would tease her and she did not think, heck she was dating last time she saw her or the year before anyway it did not matter she... she blushed and turned away from her reflection with a pout. The most difficult person about this was simply herself. There was nothing going on right? There was nothing wrong with saying she wouldn't have said no and just talking about it tonight as Jasmine has put it in the hot springs, wasn't going to make disasters either. How come... she did not dare to ask her this question but why did anyone ever like her? She never felt like she liked herself, heck she was the one with the split persona and yet Jasmine knew about that, might not be that she remembered much but she never seemed to have walked away from her which meant something. Would this stop making her feel disgusting? Because Rowan has had this period that she couldn't even look at her reflection without feeling... dirty. In the sense of being covered in mud although rather her nightmares were blood, she had never done that and it had never gone so far but she was just... just that... scared and even if she controlled her power, it was still fire.

And what do you wear on a "we talk about what you said and what wasn't said thing." She was normally a person that would dress to the nines but she was trying to stop looking like a rich kid and more like a human being that could count on herself when necessary. She wanted to be a hero and not a snob. She was wearing an easy summer dress though, It was a soft pink and just was easy to wear at hot summer days like this. Her long black hair was tied in a ponytail and she just didn't fix anything extra on her make-up, mascara and eyeliner were fine right? Lipgloss or something or... stop fidgeting. She jumped up and almost let out a squeal when she heard the knocking, thank god Jasmine wouldn't hear it.

She quickly opened the door and tried to look as normal as possible (that's very difficult when you are hyper aware of trying to do so) "H-hi and sure."

She brushed the loose strains of hair still behind her ear, it was okay... it was good reaction, even if she wasn't dressed to the nines if she would say so herself. But Jasmine well she gave her a once over and just looked and she hoped it wasn't that okay but that it looked just good, right? Why did it bother her so much, she had to be honest and hold off right? It wouldn't be fair to anyone, she wasn't sure if she would be able to say that easily. Though she felt a big blush come on her face and Jasmine had not even teased her yet and she liked how casual the other girl could look. She wished she could pull that off.

Was Jasmine blushing too? She looked up when the girl called her a cutie and a direct smile appeared on her face. "Hey." She couldn't help but repeat herself with saying another hi but she smiled and tried to let go of her own shy status. Her room would be a mess of clothes right now but she was normally very clean. "I like your worn hoodie, don't worry." She was actually proud she managed to get that amount of words out of her mouth. "Thank you" But again she did not know how to compliment Jasmine about the cute looking outfit she wore, the casualty was actually really pretty, it looked good on her.

She nodded to come along and would smile again at Jasmine and would close the door behind her and look up. A-a mountain trail? Oh god... thank god for the training with Shockwave. "I like that. I am clumsy with mountain trails but I will see." Honesty, that's what she wanted right? Would this be easier because they were the same student from the same school and their tough stuff was clear, right? Too many questions and she took a deep breath and would follow the trail and she looked around, it was pretty with the lamp-lit sidewalk and she would just look around, this was still so new to her.

"Oh, yea I agree, a little busy but it was relaxing, something I could use once in a while." She blushed again and looked up, "Was it obvious I came to join your side then?" She smirked a little, she could do this, she could tease back when they did the Fort Slog run, then she can do this now as well.

Rowan tried to not laugh too loudly when Jasmine teased her and she couldn't help but hide her mouth behind a hand, it was obvious though that she giggled and she liked the wink but she still felt like she was unfair. She looked with that smile away from Jasmine. She did keep her eyes averted but tried to catch glimpses as she obviously had to follow her when they were walking at the sidewalk to get at the trail that Jaz invited her to. She liked the comment and obviously blushed a little but also she felt that the silent was okay. It did not feel so heavy as sometimes silence moments could do, it felt totally okay to look around and not focus on talking, that would come naturally. It did feel so natural, maybe because she knew Jasmine a little, but she thought that before with... Sometimes she really should give herself a break, this was going too far and she was tired of pushing and kicking herself all the time. She would look at the pathway and was a bit surprised this was here... heck how often did Hiro come here why did he pick this hotel? That was surprising but she liked this, she should claim it as part of her deal with dad... it was probably her uncle's though. She tried to again kick her thoughts away from the work part that started to become her whole being.

The landscape was so pretty that it escaped her that a breeze got around her and that wearing a summer dress wasn't the warmest option out there. For now she was doing fine, she would see how it would go further down the line of this evening, how long would they stay out? She looked around, "It looks like little fairy lights!" She said a little enthusiastic and pointed at the little lights next to the path, it must be the fireflies and she wasn't even sure if she ever seen them before and she folded her hands behind her back and tried to look as casual as she could. She looked up a little surprised when Jaz walked a little faster and she wasn't sure if she should catch up but then the silver-haired girl turned around and walked backwards so they could look at each other. She stretched out her hand but quickly held it back, it wasn't like Jasmine would fall. She brushed her hair behind her ear and smiled and averted her eyes to see where she was walking before looking back up when Jasmine talked again. She bit her lip to not immediately make a stupid comment about the hotel chain her father owned cuz that was not what Jasmine would have to know at this right point. "I can see the benefits of that too, sounds great." She smiled a little more when she noticed their eyes met. She was unsure how to hold herself, was she doing fine? She wanted to give the best impression she could give, struggling with finding words and where to hold her hands and so on, or where to look!

"Hm, I like it was a very pleasant surprise, I can deal with that." She felt so weird smiling so much all the time, while she thought she should be more gloomy. Her smile disappeared into an o-vorm of her lips and she was surprised and wasn't sure what to say, she blushed a lot. She bit her lip soon and she pushed herself to say something but nothing happened, no words passed her lips. She bonked her own head when Jasmine turned the conversation away and turned around. See! She should have said something. She quickly took a few steps quicker and took Jasmine's hand in hers and just did not look at her, but was obviously blushing very much. "I-I don't know if we should call it a date," She looked back at Jasmine, because she should be honest and look her in the eye, "But it really sounds nice." Even if it was not fair to Jasmine or to Sean, it was just them walking and talking right now, right? And she did not want to deny that the idea of that was very nice.

She always felt like she was walking on her tiptoes, all her life. Not in the sense of dancing but in the sense of afraid of making the wrong step, again and again; it wasn't going to go away. It wasn't going to be better ever, but she was working really hard on it and yet maybe not hard enough? The girl was always working in the literal sense of the word; school, homework, training, economy classes, hotel work. But working her butt off to be more fun and such; that was far more difficult than she anticipated. But on the one hand, she felt really relaxed right now, it might have been the air, the hot springs, the no zombies and school stuff or just being with a person that she felt comfortable with. She just was so confused by this moment because of her saying yes while she was... she shouldn't have said yes or well not yes without explaining but she did not say anything now either. She felt horrible about herself every time she felt that she was enjoying herself... because she shouldn't, not yet?

"I have never seen them like this, it is very pretty." She nodded and she was surprised that Jasmine had thought previously about the idea that she might like them. How come, did people do that often? Think what others might like in these cases? So what did that make it of her previous dates? She thought that Sean would like such a thing as the hot springs but even if they were still dating that would not immediately mean she would invite him here... is that what she did wrong? She did not want to do that wrong. She just smiled as Jasmine teased her and as they would talk she would answer and try to forget her stress.

It was definitely hard to subdue when Jasmine called it a date. And she pushed Jaz away, she could see that, the girl apologized and she felt like she should do something about it. Trying to take the quick steps to join her friend by her side, she decided to be a little more brave then usual, if they could take it slow, it would be fine. She first had not dared to look at Jasmine but she had decided for the sake of clarity and honesty that she should, hence why she looked up right when Jasmine looked at her, Rowan was blushing. She felt something strange in the pit of her stomach, like it just made a somersault but not in the sense that she felt nauseous, it was rather okay. Which was strange to say and she felt like the skin of Jasmine wasn't colder or much hotter than her own, which felt kind of right. As if it was meant to be that they would hold hands eventually. She wasn't sure if she should say more as the hood went further down Jasmine's face and thus she bit her lip even further down.

But then she heard a giggle and a puff of air escaped her lips as she had no idea she was holding it. Afraid she had said something wrong or made it very bad. She looked up when she heard words and she felt the squeeze and softly squeezed back. Her eyes turned a little bigger and the blush more intense, "O-oops?" She should be honest though but she wasn't sure how to find the words. She felt herself very awkward when not saying anything and actually confirming it was a date. "Would you mind if it was a date?" Though the silver-haired girl had said it before, it was just a question, "Because-" But her voice faltered and she looked around her as they had reached the end already before she knew it. The spread of the valley below them was so pretty and serene she did lose her track of thought. She wished she lived here instead of in the business of Tokyo and Musutafu. Maybe doing a hero job wasn't actually made for her.

"Heh," she said the sound of her laughing a little when Jasmine asked, "Yes it is," She shivered a little because she noticed it was quite cold without Jasmine so close by her side. Should she still say it, or would that ruin everything? "I-I am, maybe I am going too quickly but... I think you ought to know that I just- I mean a few weeks ago broke up with S-Sean and I-I don't want to go too quickly and ruin another relationship." Or friendship or whatever this was going to end up being because she thought she was ruining so much. Maybe she wasn't able to give enough love to people or she had not found the right person, but she shouldn't be a hopeless romantic that kept on failing and falling?

Was she that sheltered? Or would it be better to call her simply stupid? She had normally not cared about the outside world. It was a bit pathetic, if your world and life were already lined out for you, why show interest, right? It was probably all that and the fact that she had been deadly afraid of her own quirk. She did not know what to say but being outside of the city or even the busy district of Musutafu definitely did help. She was surprised by the fantasy and fairy look of the fireflies, something that would at first sound absolutely disgusting after all it were insects but so far away from her, they held some magic in their appearance. It made her feel like maybe a princess, like a magical one instead of the wealthy human being that she was; which wasn't always fun, alright? But it wasn't only the fireflies it was the whole situation, the forest, the greens, everything felt so much better than the grey she imagined from the skyscrapers and business people in Tokyo, was that going to be her future? She shouldn't think too much about it right now, which was quite easy, to be honest, as the outside distracted her again and again, so many noises and things she felt like she had not seen before.

But she had to break that moment of peace because even if the outdoors were as pretty as a fairy tale, it had to be an honest moment, Jasmine had asked her something back in the springs and she had blurted something out without thinking, that she would not have said no. That had not been a lie but she had to be honest with herself and definitely be honest with Jasmine if she wanted to do well and not ruin something again. It was just a very heavy question that she did not know how to answer either. A date, in all honesty, was very easy, you could go out and call it a date, there was no one you were betraying at that point in time and so on. That wasn't what she was worried about in the end, but it was that they should share the same peace of mind and the same idea about their timing and their pace if she wanted this to go well, but then again maybe that was also overthinking the situation which could potentially harm Jasmine already.

She looked back up at Jasmine when she confirmed it, that she did not mind. It was something that made her feel relieved, maybe even the sleepy butterflies in her stomach woke up to wonder what was going on. It was cute that she said she liked it a lot. Rowan wasn't sure what to say herself though. She felt like she should say something but something did not happen, her jaw was screwed shut and she felt like she betrayed her own question, she had been asking it for a reason, but why ruin the moment? It was not that, it was about honesty and mostly towards Jasmine and Sean. She did not want Sean to think he was so easily replaced, that wasn't what it was it was... she did not know what to say or even how to consider what she thought. She smiled though, without maybe knowing it, but Jasmine's answer had been nice. She looked up when she was spoken to and to see Jaz her expression. She nodded, that's what she just had thought herself as well.

She could not help but chuckle a little, "Like a holiday bungalow or something." She said and looked around, they did not really own such a thing as the Sakamoto family, they owned hotels, like this one, so why get a bungalow, but it was a funny idea. She blushed a little when they spoke about income and looked away, not sure if she should say something about that. Now she was the wealthy snobby Princess instead of the magical one, better not break it right. "Right, yea I know what you mean." Never was she alone until she got her apartment in Musutafu that her father financed or well her mother. At that point it had been so weird to be alone and imagine she had to clean all by herself, she had not been really good at it. She shrugged but her eyebrows were frowned, "Could be like a holiday house though, for weekends, Christmas, anything like that." She knew some of her father's employees had that and it sounded nice, "I am a city girl too, everything within reach and being there where you have to be is so much easier than driving quite a while or take the train." She wasn't a train or bus girl but it was definitely easier. Again Rowan shrugged, maybe a bit of a thing she did when she did not know how to respond, "You do not have to apologize for that though. I don't mind." She smiled a little, the shrug was dismissive but in a good sense so to say.

Finally she dared to confess though, that she was so unsure and she looked at her feet when she said that she never knew about Sean. She had not really shared it, people suspected it since he came to the Christmas dance last year and you know kissing him directly after her fight at the sports festival but that was the start and directly the end maybe. "It didn't last long, I am not sure if I am made for a relationship, I do want to try though." She quickly looked up to Jasmine after she confessed she doubt she was good at it but that shouldn't be a sign she wanted to quit it, she was honest though. But that's why she should say more, so she said she wanted to take it slow to not ruin the relationship but wanted to try it anyway.

She looked away again and crossed her arms, not to shut out Jasmine but damn it was cold, why did she only notice now? She held her upper body and just turned her attention back to Jasmine when her sentence seemed to trail off. It was maybe not her own motion that turned to look to Jasmine only, it was also that the girl lifted up Rowan's chin and made her look at her. Her eyes turned a lot bigger and her lips parted in a silent surprise and looked and blinked at Jasmine, it wasn't that she minded, it was her surprise and suddenly her cheeks turned a very red colour and her mouth closed and she swallowed obviously and nodded. Too bashful to talk.

It was just so strange how everything was going and yet she did not want to deny that she liked it. She had not thought this was an option, ever an option. She knew she was pushing people away and hurt them and she had decided it was better if she did not. She had been so stupid to fall for that criminal when he was her first connection in the UA library, how could she have known? And Haru, it was just she was so scared and she should try to really open up to Jasmine. In case this would work out, see there she was going again... If something was depending on working out, she had to work for it herself as well. She would have to be open and honest and that was not something she was used to. She had been working really hard last year to open up and be not so scared of everything but that still wasn't an easy decision to make every time she came on that path of the crossroad. She rather took the easy way out but it made her lonely and afraid of everything, she wanted to break that circle.

She could not help but make a gasp and a squeaking sound when she was lifted up and carried bridal style. Now that was something new to consider. But it made the atmosphere a lot warmer too, the first cuz she was embarrassed and second because both their body temperatures seemed to be warmer than normal, after all, she noticed Jasmine's which was a new experience for the explosive quirker. She wrapped her arms around Jasmine's neck to make sure she was holding on to something as well but she tried to not laugh too much but it was funny and scary at the same time, so it did not help and she giggled.

"What if we fall?" She had no way that she learned to use her quirk like that and it was so interesting how different they were from each other. After all, did they not say your quirk influenced your persona and look at them? She had nothing to complain about though. Eventually, Jasmine would stop and let her go and with her food on a steady ground she looked first where they stood before looking up and her mouth opened again, there were no artificial lights to screw up the night sky, "It is really pretty." But now with the heat of Jasmine's body gone, she wrapped her arms around herself again, it was even colder here than down there between the trees, really next time she should not try to look just cute but also wear a jacket or something, she had a jacket, why not wear it?!

But she tried to lower her shoulders, try to stop shaking from the feeling and just looked up, it was easy to be distracted if the breeze did not surprise her again and again. It was just nice to look at the stars, so calming and pretty.

Jasmine Noir  49 exp added to 190 exp for a total of 239 exp
Rowan Sakamoto  39 exp added to 473 exp for a total of 512 exp
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