An Unexpected Reunion [Antonio | Saga]

She did not want to talk, talking made it real. She had thought this before, with the same person in the same place. She had told him no, she was drunk when she told him yes. It was always officially a yes but she couldn't. It was too dangerous and it was true: he did not know her and look at her now. Her past was haunting her, trying to kill her. Surely Antonio was much better at whatever this was. Information was key, that was exactly her job, only proving more that he was right for her, that he would understand her but she was afraid, scared and idiotic. No one was looking for her and everything was taken from her, so why trust a new person. Good gosh, her brain could be so mean and unreasonable while he stood in her kitchen again. After two months and she wanted to touch him, wanted him to hold her again... Not when she was half dying and whimpering in pain, no just because she wanted to be held and he wanted to hold her. Those moments were over unfortunately and she should deal with that as she had been dealing with everything. "I will try, I am sorry it is still... so shocking and all." she bit her lip and took another sip of the water bottle before she put it down on the kitchen surface and leaned against it with her hips and upper body.

"He was my partner, as in the other pro-hero. He is smart but not as me, he was the brawls while I was the brains. We worked perfectly together. He is quick is mostly speed, he is agile and fast, that is what I know. It's like he is a bullet that is hard to dodge, though it doesn't give him extra power like punching is just normal power?" She wasn't sure how to explain it and looked at the mosaic stones of her kitchen surface. "He does think he is very great, always did underestimate his opponent but his agility and his speed and such, it was just that impressive. I don't even know if killing him is smart." She gripped the bottle tightly and tightened her grip even more on it, splashing some of the water on the surface. "What will happen to me next?" Because what would be the answer of Barbados, if she let him be killed, who would come next? And worse, how would she keep her identity hidden?

Her face was looking at the kitchen counter, loose strains of hair covering her cheeks and just taking away her expression from few. Through her eyelashes, however, she was trying to get a glimpse of his face. Was she being ridiculous? Was she all the time this ridiculous? She was not sure, she did not want to think about it, or what he thought. He deserved to know if she wanted his help but it was such a strange phenomenon. First, she was kicked out, she was fired, hit and banished... The only one of the two missing in action. Cadeus had not been there when the fire erupted, he had not been there to protect and risk his life either but they did not look at him, they all looked at the daughter of the Governor. It was not fair and it never would be but to find him here where he was trying to kill her, it just made no sense. She couldn't get around the idea that she left Barbados and yet still they want her away, gone for good. He had said why... because she wasn't trustworthy, but she didn't get it. Didn't give him the chance to finish speaking as he hurt her and she ran.

It was the information he needed though and she told him. She nodded, "I think that's the best way to describe it, yes." She would want to behold, want to not fall apart in front of anyone but especially not in front of Antonio. She finally looked up at him, "Because they know I am gone now, they might think it was me. Barbados will suspect me. I am building a life here, after they made me a criminal. I don't want to be hunted all the time, I don't want to have to look over my shoulder all the time." She held herself after almost exploding the bottle so to say, she needed to be more secure, she needed to be safe, so what will happen with her next? She bit her lip, she wanted to say yes, but was it a really smart decision. "That's very kind of you. I feel betrayed, I don't think I would mind it if he dies. He got nothing from all the issues I got, while we both didn't do what my country wanted. He got scotfree, it was just me that got punished, hurt and banished and look at him now, my parents even send him to me to kill me. He used to be my partner, the one I could depend on and now... he is my murderer."

She nodded, she decided to walk around the kitchen counter to stand closer to him. "I don't know if I can." Wasn't she stealthy enough? Probably she was, she got her power back, the problem was that she was definitely not strong enough mentally to do it. "I am not strong enough, I- I don't know what to do." So she explained how she couldn't and she just wanted him to hold her again but she didn't, would he hold her if she would just try it... no keep her focus and keep her distant. She leaned on the counter now and just would think about it. She bit her lip and pinched the bridge of her nose.

"I want to live my life." She felt like crying as it never went the way she wanted. "I wish this never happened, anything of it, but I have to go on, no one asks me if I want to or what I want okay so I don't know. I don't want to hide, I just want to continue my life, I want to fill in what I want. I have to kill him but I can't send an assassin myself, I need to do it as if it's an accident. This will be dangerous, there might be a court case and everything, I just... I don't know what to do, this sounds so far fetched and I thought killing the minister of Defense was going to be far fetched but please, Antonio. I don't know what to do or what to think of myself anymore?" She failed, she was going down the rabbit hole and there was no way of fixing it anymore. There was no sense of it. She wasn't doing well and she wobbled and just went to stand up straight again. "I am losing every fraction of my life and I don't even know where to start to bring it back." She felt dizzy when thinking about it, the most important part was that she wasn't going to kiss him now even if she wanted to so badly.

"Oh- oh I am terribly sorry, that was a-awkward." She did not want him to think that she didn't trust him or that but she thought it should be her and it was so difficult with everything and she did not get it. She wasn't sure what to do and she just wanted to stay alive be appreciated and everything. Not be followed by death like it was her archenemy and her best friend or something like that. She just felt lost, dizzy everything, it wasn't like her feet did no longer touch the ground and yet because it did she felt like she lost her balance. She wasn't sure what to do with herself, she was so lost because of everything, she was so confused with what she wanted, that she could not have it. She had to go on but at what price, it wasn't the same for everything. She turned away from him, not so sure about herself or so steady and she let out a soft sound when he held her and she just felt herself shaking and not sure what to do. She slowly put her hand on his arm and just let him hold her for a short moment. Why was he apologizing, he had no need to do so. "Me too." Sorry for ruining it all and just being on this balance, this scale that did not show which side was the equal one, it was very confusing.

When he let her go, she turned around slowly and nodded, "I will-" But the buzzer went and she looked at it, was that Kozue already? A voice came over the intercom, Ma'm the request to meet the man of this afternoon, he said you would know, can be by the pier near the beach. Pier 46." She took a hold of Antonio with her eyes big in maybe surprising, maybe fear. He knew where she was and he chose not to go up and kill her but wait for her. "He probably wants to talk right?" She just needed to know why. "I-I need to know why, I really do, please." She needed his approval, she needed his clear mind to tell her why and how because if she was being that ridiculous and stupid then what was the solution to it? She brushed her hair, pulled harshly on it, she was sure she was being stupid. She couldn't think clearly anymore, she wasn't sure what to do. "I am going crazy."

She flinched a little when he told her to get a hold of herself. So often she had tried, and so often she wasn't sure where to think and how to think straight and she felt her shoulders shake. Her eyes turned watery and she just realized how much her life would never be the same. She nodded as she moved her hands up and worked on moving her tears away. She did not want to know, she did not want to kill him, she did not want to say anything and just let it go. "I need a moment, I will go grab my suit, he knows I can turn invisible so he should see that one coming. I-I will go freshen up myself, if-if you need time to prepare you can." She turned away from him. She had no idea how to finish the plan. She wanted to talk, she wanted to know why.

She just pushed herself off the kitchen cabinets and looked shortly at him before disappearing towards her room. They wouldn't have much time if she promised to be back but she needed... she needed a moment to compose herself and fix her make-up and everything. She just needed out for a second, he could freshen up, that's what she said, she would just sit there in her room, take the hand mirror and clean her face, adjust her make-up before changing clothes again. If they were going for the fight she could just do this fight and she would be ready. She wanted this over with.

So after twenty minutes she showed up back in the living room and said she would be ready, her hair in a topknot, her mask in her pocket and the silver body that Kozue made for her, the only thing she was actually wearing, surely she wore shorts and high knee boots but the shorts would easily disappear soon. She would just be ready to stay invisible for a while. "I am ready." Although she still spoke softly and hesitant, she would be able to go and keep her composure. While walking to the elevator, she grabbed a key in the hallway and tossed it to him, "You can drive." It would make it easier for her to disappear and appear unnoticed and for him to stay aside. Though she rather had he would come closer, she would text Kozue where she was going and that he was there, maybe he could come to fill something else well.

She nodded, did not look over her shoulder, just went away. She knew what she felt and what she shouldn't feel and it was impossible to not count on Antonio at moments like these. It was like the cards had brought them together again, temperance. What should she do with it? It was just, he now saw the struggles of her life right? She was tempted to get to the bathroom to apologize but she didn't. It wasn't like it was new to her but privacy and all and most of all distance. She wasn't sure what she should say or do or fix this but eventually she just went to clean her face and fix her hair and suit. It was that or nothing and she should be above this. This was going to be her life whether she wanted it or not. She had no choice, call it faith, call it destiny or just being gosh darn unlucky... Narcissa was on a rollercoaster and it would never end. She took a deep breath, made sure she was ready and left her room, just when she bumped into Antonio. She did notice the blood on his shirt... must be hers... should she offer him a new one? But she had nothing, it's not like they were a couple and Antonio had some of his stuff still here.

"Thanks and sorry again." There were like no words to figure out what to say and do, so the trip down the elevator and the car ride to the pier was rather silent and she would not know what to say but look outside. "I think, I could stay invisible, he knows that is my power but I don't know how to get rid of him?" Without having to send him back to Barbados or anything, she wasn't sure what to say, do or how to act. This wasn't just villainy, this was... erasing the past it was kind of clear that there was no way back at all but that wasn't so easy to understand or to process in her brain. She would not look at Antonio, but actually she desperately hoped he came with a game-strategy because she had no idea. Like she was stuck in a loop or in a film that she did not have the control over and she could end up dead at any given time. She did not want that, she had thought about it before... you know ending it. But when Death was looking you in the eye, she suddenly got very scared.

She felt it, like a little tingling in her body and she nodded but said nothing. She did not want to, she was afraid she would ruin it again. It was... so strange to have him so near and he had hugged her and she did not want it to stop. they drove in utter silence, there was nothing she could say or wanted to say until they arrived close to the pier and she should talk and she turned to look at Antonio. She wasn't sure if she was strong enough, how could you be strong enough to kill your former best friend? Would anyone ever be? "It would be the best if we could, but I don't know how?" She turned to look out of the window as if at any given time she would be able to spot Cadeus. "Tell me, what you would think?" She was sure that there must be some possibility as Cadeus in general overestimated himself, but she wanted him to talk, she wanted to know why... why her? Why not him? Why only Narcissa King?

She turned her attention back to Antonio, to be surprised by his worried look and she did not know what to say. It was flattering maybe, if he really thought about her at this point. she held up her hands to show him the gloves that were attached to the bodysuit that Kozue had made for her. She should get him here too right? She looked at her phone, she had send the location, question was if Kozue was here already or that he would miss it. Was he still at the airport?

"Like I can throw up at any given moment?" She turned to look over her shoulder because she was about to get out of the car when Antonio asked her. She would get out and walked around to stand by his side. Oblivious to his thoughts she leaned against him, "If I didn't have you, what would I have done?" She would probably have died thanks to blood loss and the poison... she wasn't sure if she should answer her own rhetorical question or just let it be. "So, what can I do now?" Did he tell her before and she forgot already? Highly possible, she did not want to think about it. It would be just a talk, she would look over the sights they could see, at the end of the pier, in front of the plaza stood a man, whose body build she recognized as her former partner. So that's where she needed to go.