Post by Feng "Fei" Yao on Feb 23, 2020 19:20:26 GMT -4
The shot fired off as soon as she Yumi gave her response.. She couldn't hear but at least she got the answer she was happy with at least. But as a result of not even trying to dodge the hit, she would feel her ears bleeding from the shot itself. It missed her as she would have expected but the pain was immense as she felt the entire side of her body hurt. She wanted to scream but she beared with it as she knew she deserved this. Fei couldn’t move her entire side of her body as she would ask herself why. Many whys perhaps as she would keep asking herself… “Why did I do that? Why was that my solution? Why did I care about Feng's actions?’ and so on. Was it a pity? Was it regret? Was it Feng taking control? She kept wondering as everything seemed to move slower than usual. She doesn't even know who has the wheel right now as she would just let herself fall to the ground.
Maybe the pain was causing her to see things, her eyes would look at Yumi as she knew what was coming. She knew this would happen, it was always fated to be, there was no way in hell she would ever win against someone like her. It’s always her, It always has to be her. But maybe she should've been happier for her...maybe if she spoke up about it instead of letting it come to this. There were so many maybes that she could have done but she chose this path. The one where she hurt her good friend for sake of petty revenge.
She would feel her body move and then all she would feel a sharp pain going through her body as she got smashed into the ground. The electricity was flowing through her body, her body spasmed and shot as all the volts flowed through her body. It was pain she had never felt before as she felt her body crack the very ground underneath by the force of the attack.
Her vision flickered as she saw her friend's face before all of it went black. The darkness felt like an eternity as she would linger there. Was she Fei or was she Feng? She didn't know anymore as she would only hear two voices just...talkin in the meantime. “Why did I do that, why did I do that, oh god why the fuck did I do that!”, one voice would express a large amount of regret as another would simply respond with”I fucking told you, I told you were too brash and look what happened. CAN YOU NOT THINK OF YOURSELF FOR EVEN ONE MINUTE AND THINK”. “ WELL I WAS REALLY EMOTIONAL AT THE MOMENT AND THAT WAS THE FIRST THING I COULD THINK OF!”, the other voice would reply. While the other voice would answer more angrily in the way of,” AND LOOK WHAT YOU DID, YOU THREW AWAY A YEARS WORTH OF PROGRESS FOR A 7 OUT OF 10 GUY, SERIOUSLY WHAT KIND OF TASTE DO YOU HAVE”, she would retort. It was a back and forth that went for while in this black space. Some of it comedic, other times was really dire, but most of the conversation was just that mostly and none of it was actually productive as it just went in circles.
....
It lasted for who knows how long until a feeling came back.
....
It was sudden but then she woke up in the infirmary. She didn't know who she was right now, in all honesty she can’t even find the motivation to speak right now. Despite being lucid, she would wonder what to even do now after that shameful display today. She would lay there and just wallow in her own pity as she kept remembering all the events until now. She can't bring herself to speak up even in text as she knows what she did. No amount of apologies can ever fix it, whoever was in control has to deal with this and its not going to be easy when all of this is over.
TLDR:
Pain
Regrets
Blacking out
Mental Arguments
Waking up and wallowing in pity
Maybe the pain was causing her to see things, her eyes would look at Yumi as she knew what was coming. She knew this would happen, it was always fated to be, there was no way in hell she would ever win against someone like her. It’s always her, It always has to be her. But maybe she should've been happier for her...maybe if she spoke up about it instead of letting it come to this. There were so many maybes that she could have done but she chose this path. The one where she hurt her good friend for sake of petty revenge.
She would feel her body move and then all she would feel a sharp pain going through her body as she got smashed into the ground. The electricity was flowing through her body, her body spasmed and shot as all the volts flowed through her body. It was pain she had never felt before as she felt her body crack the very ground underneath by the force of the attack.
Her vision flickered as she saw her friend's face before all of it went black. The darkness felt like an eternity as she would linger there. Was she Fei or was she Feng? She didn't know anymore as she would only hear two voices just...talkin in the meantime. “Why did I do that, why did I do that, oh god why the fuck did I do that!”, one voice would express a large amount of regret as another would simply respond with”I fucking told you, I told you were too brash and look what happened. CAN YOU NOT THINK OF YOURSELF FOR EVEN ONE MINUTE AND THINK”. “ WELL I WAS REALLY EMOTIONAL AT THE MOMENT AND THAT WAS THE FIRST THING I COULD THINK OF!”, the other voice would reply. While the other voice would answer more angrily in the way of,” AND LOOK WHAT YOU DID, YOU THREW AWAY A YEARS WORTH OF PROGRESS FOR A 7 OUT OF 10 GUY, SERIOUSLY WHAT KIND OF TASTE DO YOU HAVE”, she would retort. It was a back and forth that went for while in this black space. Some of it comedic, other times was really dire, but most of the conversation was just that mostly and none of it was actually productive as it just went in circles.
....
It lasted for who knows how long until a feeling came back.
....
It was sudden but then she woke up in the infirmary. She didn't know who she was right now, in all honesty she can’t even find the motivation to speak right now. Despite being lucid, she would wonder what to even do now after that shameful display today. She would lay there and just wallow in her own pity as she kept remembering all the events until now. She can't bring herself to speak up even in text as she knows what she did. No amount of apologies can ever fix it, whoever was in control has to deal with this and its not going to be easy when all of this is over.
TLDR:
Pain
Regrets
Blacking out
Mental Arguments
Waking up and wallowing in pity
