Crossing a Bridge [Miku & Hanako]

With her head on the back of the couch and her eyes closed, she sort of shut herself out from the others in the room. She was not even sure if they were inside or not at this point. She was tired from the flight, she was exhausted from her own behaviour and most of all she was hurt. She wasn't sure what to say, do, how to act, what to get and so on. It was tiring and not funny and for a second she wondered why she had not stayed at home with Kai. She could have run the gym, not be worried about that either and so on. She was done with everything and mostly with herself, she was done with everything. She tensed up and got sort of upright, her shoulders and face mostly because the rest of her body did not really move but she looked at someone that suddenly hugged her and as her body tried to not freak out, she did, mentally that is. But it was Miku and she repeated that in her head several times, it was Miku. It was fine. She did not say anything, but wrapped her left arm around the girl herself and softly stroked her hair with her right, she pulled her a little closer for as far as the smoll momma could do. But she would do it and she would hold Miku and she would let her be until the girl would talk to her.

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She would just stroke the girl's beautiful blonde hair and would just sit there. She would be there if she wanted to talk and she would be there if she did not want to talk and would just want this hug. She did not mind that, she just let it happen. It was peaceful for sure. She opened her eyes and stopped the motion of her hand when the girl said she loved her and she felt a little block in her throat, made it difficult to swallow. She did not feel really well the last couple of days, weeks and she had never been able to tell Miku why. Yet she was forgiven about it. Hana was convinced it would not be possible if she knew what was hidden. But she stopped breathing for a second when she heard the last part of her second sentence. G? But... "What is it, my dear?" What could possibly be wanted from her that G did not have? At least he knew more to protect them and make sure they stayed protected, he did so much and yet they did not know. Hana at least had not shared anything about the Shinagawa issue or what came after that. Their Christmas had been one facade after another.

It wasn't fair, but sometimes issues were not for the kids. No matter their age and as she and G had not really spoken about it, and thus weren't sure if they should share it with the kids, she didn't. It was just that, she didn't and she did not want to consider it. Sometimes she wished she could just disappear, but she could not. That was clear of course, one day maybe, but that would take quite a while. She would have to wait for Kai to be independent and hopefully at that time it was not needed anymore.

She held her breath shortly as Miku said what isn't. She wasn't in a good place to go and help others but Miku needed her. So she needed to set her own childish ass aside and be there. She felt her heart slow down, she did not want to talk about G in the way Miku was talking, she loved him and she hurt him more than she ever could say out loud. She was sure of that, no one could convince her otherwise, probably not even the man himself. "People always think they do the right thing for people they love, even if it hurts them a lot." She said, hoping she sounded wiser than she felt. But her heart really broke when Miku said she hated him. She even held her breath again.

She did not say anything for a good while, "I might not completely understand, as I wasn't there but what I do understand is this and it's going to sound unreasonable too but try to imagine. Your father never got the love he wanted, it made him a broken man, it made him run away from home and leave me, the one person that did love him." she might not have loved him in the way she did now as a child but she had loved him, she had always been there and always would have been there. "That is not to say that he doesn't understand the concept of love because he does, and no one means more in the world to him than you do, Miku." Hanako felt like crying but she convinced herself to be strong and look at the blonde in her arms. "He is so afraid that you will be butchered, hurt and tortured the way he was that he is doing exactly that without seeing it. We talk about it a lot, we try to change it a lot but honey that takes so much time, he is trying his very best but the fact that you walked over to the man he fears the most," She wasn't sure if it was Thunder, but after everything she was sure as hell afraid herself that Thunder would take away from them what they build up together or separate over the years. "He made a mistake, he knows that, and he tries so hard to make up for that mistake that he is going overboard, but he is so scared of losing you."

"We already talked about that Miku," The woman said quite strictly, "I am afraid we will not understand the way you think because we are biased for your safety. Everyone is formed by their own experience and that makes them try their very best to avoid things for the next generation." She looked away before Miku looked up at her and spoke about his mistakes.

She herself took a loud and deep breath, god lasting effects. Long-lasting effects. Yes, she knew and she turned her face to look away, did she not know it. But did she not know what she did and it would have a long-lasting effect either. She gritted her teeth because it was the opposite of what she did. But she did not want to blame Miku herself for not trying to reach others. She had no one, no one cared about her and they all cared about her sister. This was a parallel but the results were not much the same, albeit she was trying. "Miku, tell me, what do you do to make friends?" She wasn't ready to accept that only one person was to blame but she might let him learn from it, she had tried and tell Miku that during the time of her punishment she should bring people at home, hold a party and she was not convinced that the girl extended the invitation to anyone but Rowan as no one else came. She wanted to think about it, she needed to see this on a reasonable matter. "It is time to stop complaining about it and I am not saying you shouldn't but it's time to change it. We stopped grounding you, we hoped you got the message." And Hanako wasn't sure if she was getting that message. "It's time that you pick up your own pace and meet people and figure out, we cannot hold your hand and introduce you to people to be friends with."

Her advice wasn't soothing, her advice wasn't slowly taking off the bandage, it was ripping it off. "I know it's not fair because he tried to stop and protect you." But considering you became all buddy buddy with Thunder I am not surprised. She thought to herself and she had survived without the hypocritical high school friends too and that meant that in case necessary so would Miku. Teenagers were arrogant and selfish anyway, only a few would survive to be your friend throughout the years. In chat, you didn't make friends in a chat. People were not really who they were in or outside the chat, either they spoke a lot more or they didn't and it was mostly the opposite of their own personality. Inviting people at a time where most of them went home and well the latter things simply changed. She took a deep breath, she had advice but she didn't give it. "A handful of good friends is worth more than thousands of them or even your whole class. If you only have Rowan, you have more than many other people have." That is if Rowan really cared about Miku, Hanako had only met her once, considering they got this hotel thanks to her she sort of assumed the girl was doing well and meant that friendship.

Although Hanako knew that G would rather hold Miku's hand and let her be introduced to people he thought were trustworthy, they could not always and she hoped that the girl learned from her mistake. But the mistake still made her scared. "Your dad would rather hold you by the hand as he is scared of pushing you away and in the wrong direction but be honest to me, you are holding on just as much to him and yet you blame him." But yes, she answered, she said she was changing and she would do more. Change in Hanako's opinion was a necessary factor in everyone their life and it mostly happened at that point in life. However, she hated to be the one to tell Miku that it was necessary. "You can definitely do this and it might be hard or not fun but you will manage, you are a tough one."

It felt like Hanako was a betrayer on her own. A traitor as she protected G from the harm Miku was doing to his image, and yet she was walking away from him. She was waiting for Miku to ask her about it, but maybe the girl had not noticed as she had left the house and returned to the dorms. Maybe she did not want to see it either. So she went on, pushing the girl and being strict with her, if she wanted to be an adult it was time to let go and blame others for things she did just the same. As Miku formed a question with her denying it, Hanako simply nodded, "Well in my opinion you do. It is always the fault of your father that you have no friends, but he wasn't there at U.A. and he isn't in every day of your life to stop you from doing just that and making the connection with the right sort of people. You cannot convince me that you have no one. You must have more people that you like hanging out with than just Rowan. Do not forget, we as Japanese people mostly take a very important first step towards our studies and I imagine that especially those at the new Hero school will try so much and focus on that. So it isn't you, and it's not the truth either. You have to expand your horizon and see what is really happening."

She sighed, she missed that man and his maybe agitated look on his face or his worry and what he would say or what she would think. She missed his shoulder to lean on and now she was doing it alone while pushing him away and she felt horrible. That was clearly the view on her face. "Yes I do think so, we all think so."