When I saw her face, I am a believer [Asmodeus & Nimue]

it wasn't helping to drown in work, she felt so useless lately, she had no idea that she was reaching a higher step for anything, whatever she trying and when she realized that she was crying (in a matter of speech) about absolutely nothing because she still had her job, her research still continued and she had her own apartment now after so long that it was a blessing, she only sobbed more about the sobbing and so on that went to not be a motivational outlet. So she called in sick, simply stating why she did not come, thank god she had no biology classes today so the others seemed to be rather okay with it right now and the principal told her to try and clear her mind, they would manage a day without her. Which wasn't motivational either but she did not tell him that, it would not help either of them if she would whine on. She had always thought that she could handle everything but she realized that she was stupidly sensitive about everything, forgetting her bag when it came to the issue of Haruuhi and her protection. Losing her way in Tokyo city so she was too late to find Rowan, not making Arisu understand what the issue was running towards Aki without informing anyone else and there was a whole list growing. 
Why was she so dull, dense, why was she so late with realizing what Oz had done? Why would she stick with Ai instead of pushing him away, they did not know each other yet he had to pester her with the greater good and her normal noble mood, maybe she should try and kill that, what was the point, everything was going so slow and it felt useless. 

Maybe she should find a replacement, Haruto, Relena and Naoru could obviously not take over, but maybe someone from the hospital wanted a career switch. Maybe she wasn't made for pressure, after all she had left South Africa because of the pressure, it was about time that she would be going through the ceremony to become the shaman as she would turn eighteen and she ran. When she bumped into problems here, she ran away by running into Oz his arms and now, she was throwing her idiotic thoughts towards G and pushing him away and she knew exactly why she was doing. His sad expression, his panic and yet coming to run towards her, depending on her for his son. Yes that was a great feeling but it was wrong. She should stay away, why did she go to the beach where he was without her... without ugh, she needed to clear her mind. 

She had taken her bag, filled with a towel, bathing suit and everything else that she needed for a relaxing day and she would grab a train towards Tokyo City and the stop close towards Elysian Garden. She hoped that in the early morning it would not be busy and that she would be able to use the relaxing of her muscles to focus on ordering her mind. She hoped that the cat that visit her weeks ago wouldn't show up now, she had placed a little bowl of water again on her balcony but she wasn't sure if it would return and she surely hoped no students were playing hooky because that would be a ruining of her day, no matter who she bumped into. She walked into the big accommodation and checked the directions before moving towards the hot springs and bought a ticket for her entrance. She would change into the right attire and put her long green hair up in a ponytail and pinning her hair in a bun so it wouldn't get wet while soaking into the water only minutes later. It wasn't busy and for as far as she saw no student in view, time to relax and make a list of things she could worry about and fix and try to find solutions for the other things to get time to relax about them as well. The water was obviously hot, hence the name hot springs, but the smell of the minerals and herbs was nice that she at least felt that she could relax a bit, that was the plan.