Post by Deleted on May 7, 2018 11:12:44 GMT -4
 | ❛❛ Alchemist Myeong Kim seventeen || heterosexual || female || civilian |
PERSONALITY POSITIVE ✔ Polite + Compassionate + Book Smart + Kind + Reliable + Protective + Loyal + Generous + Obedient + Tactful NEGATIVE ✖ Meek + Passive + Gullible + Clumsy + Self-Degrading + Envious + Anxious + Insecure + Fragile + Possessive + Obsessive LIKES ✔ Gummies + Reading + Hot Chocolate + Plushies + Applies DISLIKES ✖ Her Uncle + Confrontation + Violence + Dishonesty + Bugs PERSONALITY-- You're scared of everyone; you're terrified. It's like everyone has their eyes on you, like there's not a single place you can hide. There is no place you can confide to, no place where you can save yourself. It terrifies you, enough to make you cry. You're a timid person; you're a coward. Though you will never admit it, you cannot handle the company of other people. You'll stutter, you'll cry. It feels like everyone is out to get you, like everyone watching is snickering behind your back. You're scared of everyone around you; paranoid, anxious. But deep down, you are a good person. You don't want to hurt anyone; you just want them to be happy. You just want them to smile, you just want them to be alright. Even if they push you around, even when they burden you. Let it be money, let it be time. Let it be pain, let it be crimes. You will do it, you will feel terrible, but you will do it. It makes them happy, it keeps them from hurting you. You are a coward. You hate that you do it, and you don't feel happy in your own skin anymore. But in that case, if it makes them happy, then so be it. If your crying, your kindness, and your pain is what makes them happy and rave in ecstasy, then so be it. You will do whatever to make them happy without any complaints, all because they tell you that they are your "friends". But come the day where you talk back, where you say that enough is enough. Come the day where you put your foot down, and scream that you'd just about had it. Though that day will barely ever come, and it's something that hasn't been discovered by even yourself - but you can get possessive. It's been so long since something has been yours, you barely have anything you have a right to own, anymore. So when something comes your way, you must have it. You must keep a hold on it, never let go. Yes, you come off as clingy. Annoying, dependant they say. But nevertheless, this is who you are. A kind girl. A possessive girl. A fear-driven girl. A shameless, disappointment of a girl. You can't speak to men, they terrify you. You've never had a single, good encounter with a man. If it was, they were looking for something from you. Their perverted gazes, their snarky comments, something that scared you away. They make you freeze up, you would rather not interact with them. Any of them. Even then, girls scare you, too. You don't want to talk, you don't want to interact. You just want to be left by your lonesome like the lonely, reserved girl you are. People scare you. It's nothing personal, but you can never find yourself saying the right things. When there is someone who wants to be your friend, you don't know how to respond. You don't know what to say, and ultimately they leave you again. You don't want anyone to leave, but in the end? They say you're creepy. You're clingy. "Give me some space." They would scowl. | APPEARANCE HEIGHT: 1.5 metres WEIGHT: 50 kg HAIR/STYLE: Violet; choppily cut SKIN/SCARS: Fair; discolouration on her legs EYES: Violet; Large and round NOTABLES: Numerous scars on her legs and arms; covered by bandages. |
| ❛❛Nothing can stop me from wanting you somehow |
HISTORY TW: Contains heavy and severe bullying/harassment/abuse of all kinds (I'm not kidding). Specific areas will have another warning as to where they start. A dot-jot overview will be provided at the bottom. Entry #1 H-Hello.. Uhm.. M-My name is Myeong. I-I am.. Seven years old. Um.. I heard that some girls from school were writing diaries, and they were showing them to everyone. I don't know if I'm doing this right.. A-And I really hope that I am. Um.. M-My name is Myeong Kim, a-and I'm.. S-Seven years old--... Oh.. I already said that. Uhm.. Th-There isn't.. A lot I can say, and I.. Don't know what I should say. I can't really.. Get a book, because I don't want my uncle to find it. S-So I got.. A tape recorder. It's.. A-A little old fashioned, but it's.. It's something. I.. Uhm.. I don't know if I can exchange these with the girls at school. I would.. Fit in if I did, right? M-Maybe they wouldn't be so mean to me. T-They're.. A little scary. I don't know why they always.. Give me a really bad look. I-I didn't do anything wrong, r-right? I-I didn't hurt anyone, right? Y-Yeah.. I-I keep telling myself that but.. I-I don't know.. I really, really hope that they aren't mad at me. And I.. Don't really know what else to say. I-I guess I really shouldn't have done this.. W-What if uncle hears me..? O-Oh no.. Entry #28 Th-The day.. It's June, and I'm still seven years old. School is finally over and.. T-Thank goodness I don't have to be around so many people at school. I-I.. I like school, and I like learning. Th-There are a lot of things I'm learning every day, a-and I find it interesting. B-But.. I just.. D-Don't like the people at school. But.. I don't really.. Like being at home, either. Uhm.. I-I don't think.. I talked too much about myself last time I did this, r-right..? I.. I was born in a small town. I-It was.. Really far away. My.. My family believed in god, a lot. My mom and dad would always tell me that god loved me.. A-And that they were always watching over me. They told me that.. I was their little treasure, that I was a miracle. But.. I-If that were the case.. Why did my grandma and grandpa hate me..? D-Don't.. Get me wrong. I really love my dad's side of the family but.. I-I always.. Felt them giving me glares. G-Glares and.. Stares. Th-They kept calling me a devil, th-that I was.. Possessed. I-I'm not possessed, r-right? Th-There's no demon inside me, r-right?! Y-Yeah.. Th-That's what mom and dad used to say all the time but.. But then they.. Th-They passed away a couple of months ago. S-So I'm living with my uncle now-- Ah..! H-He's home..! Entry #167 - TW: Domestic Abuse I-I don't.. Really like living with my uncle. He's.. He's really mean. And.. I.. W-When I turned nine, h-he.. He started.. Touching me in weird places. I-I don't.. Know why he's been doing this but.. I-It feels.. Wrong. It feels.. R-Really wrong.. I-I don't like this. H-He keeps.. Touching me and.. L-Looking at me and.. It doesn't feel.. Good.. I-It feels disgusting a-and.. I don't want to do this anymore..! And I.. I found out.. S-Something.. My uncle used to hurt mom a lot. I-I didn't know that he did and.. Now I know why she always told me not to get close to him. B-But he was the closest and only relative willing to take me in..! H-He was willing to take in.. A-A disappointment like me.. S-So I should be grateful, right..? H-He always seems happy when he does that s-so.. So.. I-It's the right thing to do.. Right..? I-I just have to keep him happy.. O-Otherwise h-he'll hit me and.. I-I don't want him to hit me. S-So this.. This is fine. Mmn.. Th-This is.. O-okay.. Entry #191 I'm.. F-Fourteen.. Right now. I'm entering high school. And.. I-I met a boy who was.. Really nice to me. I-It's the first time a guy was.. Actually nice to me. Hehe.. Well.. W-We've been talking a bit for a while, a-and I think I mentioned him a few times but.. H-He listens to what I say. H-He listens to me cry and.. H-He helps me out. H-He protects me at school and.. H-He's looking out for me a lot. I-I feel bad, worrying him. I don't.. Want to worry him. I-I'm thinking of.. Confessing to him later his month. Th-That's a.. Good idea, right? Th-That's.. He won't hate me, right..? I-It's because.. He's the first person to ever.. T-Talk to me that way and.. S-Smile that way to me. E-Even if he doesn't.. Accept my feelings.. I-I hope we can stay friends, too. Hehe.. I-I really hope that he'll listen to me.. Entry #192 H-He accepted my confession..! H-He.. Accepted my feelings and.. Now we're dating~.. Or.. We've actually been dating for a few days, now. Hehe.. I-I'm a bit.. Shocked from that, too. H-He told me that he felt the same way, and I was.. Really happy. Eheh.. J-Just thinking about it makes me happy.. It makes me a little excited, too. I can.. Talk to him more.. A-And we can hang out and.. G-Go on.. Dates. B-But.. What do boyfriend and girlfriend do..? I-I've never.. Dated anyone before. I'm.. Just a little nervous. Entry #210 ... Uhm.. I-I'm just.. Confirming this. My.. Boyfriend and I have been dating for about.. A-A year now and.. He's starting to get.. R-Really violent. Urm.. H-He tells me this is normal. H-He doesn't let me go out with anyone else, he doesn't let me see anyone else. H-He tries to scare away whatever friends I might make and.. H-he doesn't let me go anywhere if it isn't with him. I-I don't know.. I don't know if that's.. Okay? He.. He tells me this is normal. Th-This is what couples do, right..? Th-This is what they do..? B-But if that's the case.. Why does he feel so angry..? Wh-Why do I feel so scared? I-I'm not.. Supposed to feel scared of him, right? R-Right.. Maybe I'm just being selfish..? I'm sorry.. I-I'm sorry.. Entry #273 - TW: Severe Bullying I'm.. Sixteen a-and I didn't think I could.. Hate high school even more. The other day.. A-A few guys came up to me and.. They started teasing me. N-Now.. This.. usually happens. This usually happens and I'm.. I'm used to this. but.. Th-Then then.. Started attacking me. Th-They threw rocks at me, they hit me with sticks a-and.. I-It hurt.. I-I don't think I've recovered from that yet.. I-I have bruises a-and cuts everywhere. U-Uncle will get mad that I was hurt, b-because.. H-He said I won't look pretty like this.. Wh-What do I do..? What do I do..? H-He's going to get mad.. A-And hit me again..! I-I don't want to get hit! Erk.. I-I'll just.. Be quiet for tonight. I-I just.. Need to be quiet. Y-Yeah.. Quiet.. Entry #274 - TW: Severe Bullying I shouldn't have gone to school today. Th-Those girls.. Some girls came up to me today, r-right after the boys did..! They.. They came up to me and then.. Th-Then they just.. They grabbed my hair, and they had scissors and.. I-I don't know why they did that..! They were.. They were grabbing me and.. P-Pushing me.. And then.. Th-They just cut off my hair and.. M-My uniform and.. Ugh.. I-I couldn't do anything against them.. I-I couldn't fight back.. B-Because I didn't want to..! I-I don't want to hurt anyone and.. And.. And I don't.. I don't know what I did wrong.. I don't.. Know what I did wrong.. Entry #300 I've.. Chosen to transfer schools. I-I can't go to this school anymore.. Th-The people hate me and my boyfriend doesn't let me do anything..! H-He's always being so controlling.. A-And he's.. Scaring me..! H-He knows where I live and what time I leave to do things, sure.. B-But he knows exactly when I wake up, when I go to the bathroom, when I-I do anything..! I-It's like he's right outside of the window, a-and now I'm scared that he might.. K-Know that I'm talking in this..! O-One time I was talking to the mailman and... H-he got really mad at me.. I-I was just talking to someone else a-and he started.. Hitting me. H-He started.. H-Hitting me and.. I-I don't know.. I-I don't know what to do anymore..! M-Maybe I just did something wrong..? M-Maybe I just made him mad. Right.. Maybe I just made him mad. I-I don't want to hurt him..! I r-really don't want to hurt him! I'll.. P-Probably just get a bit more medicine later.. A-And try to patch up my wounds.. I-It's just.. A few bruises and..Cuts. I'll be okay.. I-I'll be okay. I always am.. Maybe he just needs a bit of space, right..? Exactly~.. Everything will be okay~.. I think. Entry #357 I'll be going to U.A High School but.. But my uncle and my boyfriend.. Th-They followed me..! They.. They followed me and.. And now my boyfriend isn't going to the same school but.. H-He keeps following me on campus. I-I don't know how but he keeps.. Sneaking on somehow. I-If he isn't doing that, he'd be.. Outside or.. W-Waiting for me..! I-I'm scared to leave the dorm.. I-I'm scared to leave.. I-I don't want to go out.. I-It's scary.. But he keeps texting me..! A-And my uncle keeps calling me.. C-Calling me out to visit him.. A-And I know what will happen if I do.. I-I don't know what to do.. I-I don't know what to do.. Someone.. S-Someone save me.. I-I don't.. I don't want to do this anymore.. Entry #400 .. I-I'm.. Seventeen now. I'm.. Working in the hospital now, while also going to school. A-Although.. I didn't enrol myself into the hero program. I-I don't think I'm strong enough to do it. I-I don't think I'm strong enough. I'm not.. I'm not a hero. I-It'd be better for me not to get in the way of anyone. B-But there are still people who make me do.. B-Bad things. I-I don't want to do anything bad.. B-But I can't do anything about that.. I-I'm sorry.. M-Mom, dad.. Please forgive me.. I-I'm sorry.. I'm sorry..
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