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Post by Burabura Buruburu on Jun 23, 2020 11:52:22 GMT -4
Bura stares at the door, to the office of the school counselor, he took a deep and long deliberate breath into his burning lungs before letting out a long tired sigh, as he should've expected he was mandated to come here. Bura's recent behavior has proven to be dangerous and made him unreliable. His explosive anger, his visible frustration, everything to be honest about him has been wrong. And everybody knows it, his teachers, his classmates, heck even strangers could see something was wrong with Bura as of late.
Bura's mind has been all kinds of messed up and wrong, which is why he was mandated to meet Mosa today- a few days after his behavior reached an apex as he broke a girl's ankle and ran away from the whole thing and didn't come back to the dorms until the day after. And to be honest- the school was not happy with him at all for incredibly valid reasons. Bura was so angry and disappointed with himself that his eyes threatened to flicker once again from his rage. But Bura violently shakes his wooly head and started his recent mantra of, "No-no-no-no Don't lose control-people will get hurt if you do-don't lose to your emotions-don't feel anything-don't feel anything-" Bura repeated until the red swelling of rage in his brain dulled to the subtle hue that it is always permanently stuck on now.
Bura let out a sigh-why was he so broken now? Why was he so useless and angry now? Why can't he deal with the stress anymore? Why can't he do anything right anymore? Why can't he be right anymore! Bura stood there in front of the door, he wanted to run away and never look back, but he couldn't he shouldn't he can't. He has to face his fears and talk to Mosa and deal with this. So with the last bit of his bravery- Bura knocked on the door and said, "Ganbaroshi-san? I'm here." So please make everything better and save me and everybody from myself-is how he wanted to end that sentence on, but he was too scared to do so he cut it off. And hope that what he said would suffice.
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Post by Mosa Ganbaroshi on Jun 24, 2020 7:32:33 GMT -4
Surprisingly, even with the place being a school for both heroes and villains, usually violent accidents during training weren't taken that seriously. Mosa would know. He had discussed the topic quite often with the school nurse, who he had become quite well acquainted with. In a quirked world, wounds in themselves were pretty easy to heal. If somebody went a little bit over the top, you could just talk them and see what caused them to do it, and over time, the situation would be solved. It could even be taken as a moderate learning opportunity. Basicly, students getting hurt in a school made for the purpose of training heroes to fight villains was nothing new. Mosa didn't particularly enjoy it, but that was the case.
However, the big question today was once again based on his next client: What if a student did this sort of thing consistently, and had a hard time of controlling themselves? What if they put the other hero-to-bes and by extension civilians in danger? Now admittedly, this had supposedly happened during a student planned training exercise... perhaps the student in lead hadn't considered the boys weaknesses? It was a rude thought, but always a possibility with a little bit of a lack in experience. Perhaps the person themselves was just having a rough day? A possibility, that was perhaps a little bit naively optimistic, but still possible. Whatever it was, The student themselves had been sent to talk things out with him, before it would get worse. His mission was to find exactly what the problem was. And most importantly perhaps...
If it was fixable by simple means. Mosa himself was confident in it at least. 'Boys will be boys' and what not.
Sitting at his desk once again, he heard the knock. "Do come in. The door isn't locked." As the humongous boy (not that surprising to be honest. There had been quite a few big boys as of late) entered the room, Mosa proceeded to calmly point towards all the different seats in the room. "Feel free to take a seat wherever you want. Even the carpet is quite comfortable. My daughters recommendation." The usual armchairs sitting opposite of each other, and the sofa right next to one of them, with one wooden chair that was easy to move around next to the bookcase, the boy had a proper selection to choose from.
As the boy would sit down wherever, Mosa would take his notebook out. "Now, since you are a first timer, I want to assure you, you can be open with me. I will not judge based on what has happened. The more important thing in these meetings is to talk things out, and feel more so alright with yourself, if you understand." The importance was never in what Mosa himself thought. It was about what conclusion the person he was talking with would come up with. "Naturally, whatever you speak of here will be chalked up as 'You met me', and I won't be sharing any specific details to anyone, unless you yourself feel like you need help with it." He fiddled a little bit with his pen, as he looked at the boy... it was admittedly pretty scanning look. Maybe a bit scary with his overall deadpan demeanor.
"Of course, I like asking a lot of questions, and some of my first ones might already be quite legendary in the school." He had a bit of a routine, which was sometimes problematic. "However, usually those questions lead into completely different routes from other people. Everybody has their own way to answer them and what not." With this explanation, he was assuring the boy that things were fine. He was not in trouble yet.
Of course this was a little lead-up to a question, that had started at this point tens of conversations: "How are you feeling about this meeting? Do you have any expectations? I hope I do not come off as too scary?" He started sketching the big lad on his notebook. The woolly main especially had his attention. "If you want to, you can also tell me from your perspective, why do you think you are here." Two simple questions to start with. Simply the clients opinion, and nothing accusatory. Starting truly from the bottom.
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Post by Burabura Buruburu on Jun 24, 2020 14:31:55 GMT -4
Bura heard a voice call out to him behind the door, telling him it was unlocked, which caused Bura to steady himself with a heavy sigh as he entered. Once Mosa saw him, he pointed out to the various seats in the room. Despite the larger size of the furniture-it can't hold him, so Bura sat on the carpet without a word.
AS Bura sat down, he watches Mosa with intensity as he pulled out a notebook. The man gives him what must be his usual spiel. Bura nodded his head along to the man's words and not he had any other choice but to listen and do as he is told. Bura is on a short leash right now, and he can't pull too hard without suffocating himself.
Mosa talked again saying how his quotes must be legendary by now, which Bura gives him a dead-pan look translating to "move along with it, already," Bura didn't care for this small talk, it was already kinda pissing him off how much this man is talking, it was vapid nonsense. He just wanted to get to the questions already so he can deny them already and move along with this whole thing and pretend none of this happened.
The man asked him his question, and frankly, it annoyed him. How was he feeling? Pissed off beyond relief, can't he see that on his face? Him scary? As if he'd be scared of him. But it was the final question that got to Bura, why did he think he was here. Bura let out a hefty sigh as he crosses his arms over his chest to think the questions over.
"Want my honest opinion? I'm pissed I'm here, I'm pissed you think I'd be scared of you," Bura let out a low growl, as he moved his eyes away from Mosa to glare at a random dust bunny in a corner.
Then Bura looked back to Mosa and said, "Why am I here? Isn't it obvious, it's because I'm always pissed off lately, everything either annoy me or enrages me, hell listening to you blabber on like you did piss me off. And I hate feeling angry I always feel so tense, my mouth dries up, my heart pounds until I can hear it pumping blood in my ears, and my palms get so sweaty and gross, I hate feeling so angry all the time, so I came here so you can try and fix me whatever's wrong with me." Bura's speaking was hasten as he spoke between quick and short breaths he was already getting stressed ou,t and he could feel his eyes starting to edge on glowing. Why was he like this? Why can't he stop being like this!
Bura looked at his sweating hands as he raise them up to his chest and simple asked the man, "I just want to go back to normal, i don't want to be this angry anymore, I want to go back to having friends, being good at classes, being half-way respected, I just want to go back to the beginning and be good again."
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Post by Mosa Ganbaroshi on Jun 28, 2020 8:17:37 GMT -4
It was pretty clear the boys temper was running on short fuse. Either that or he just wasn't used to this long introductions. Especially his reaction to asking how he was doing and if he was nervous was very sudden. It was pretty clear that the boy wasn't exactly sheepish about the whole deal as Mosa had expected. "Ah, I apologize. Students are usually quite embarrassed if they get in trouble that needs this sort of discussion." However, Mosa still talked with respect. It was his mistake. "You just looked a little worried when you entered. So I made an assumption." He had to be clear about being wrong.
Seemingly, the boy atleast thought he was here because his suddenly emerged anger issues. Apparently it was starting to be quite a pain in the neck. "Of course." In this case, Mosa should perhaps try to be more compact with his explanations. In that regard, he drew a little angry speech bubble connecting to Bura himself. Apparently he just wanted to be 'good' again. And in that regard, Mosa proceeded to say his spiel. This time, in a more compact fashion, so he would get the idea without needing to sit for minutes on end listening to him. "In the end, what the school wanted from me, was to help you with that. They have noticed a shift in your behaviour and want to help you with it. That is what they are looking for." If the boy didn't want him to ramble, Mosa would try his best.
"However, if you want to 'return' to some time from before, there must have been something to change your behaviour in a major way." For some it was simply puberty. Some hit it later, which made them hit a bit more of a rebellious phase. Alternatively, their quirk activated, and started more feral instincts in them. This was pretty common with the more animalistic quirks, and the person in front of him certainly, seemed to be of the type. However, as usual, it came down to the person before him whether either of these were true... Besides, calling a person in front of them a 'wild animal' was rude.
"So, the question is this: Has something happened in your semi-recent memory that could have done this drastic of a change in mentality? Anything major, minor? Even smaller things can effect our overall mood drastically." Maybe he had not been sleeping properly? Usually that one included way more baggage to uncover.
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Post by Burabura Buruburu on Jul 4, 2020 9:03:58 GMT -4
Bura's fuse has been short for months now, which is why he was here after all. The man apologized for assuming anything and that he noticed he was anxious when Bura entered, he was. But he wouldn't admit it. He didn't want to say his weakness over something as stupid as meeting a person. Bura, in response, only lets out an annoyed grunt as he looks away from Mosa. Why was he acting like this- the man only wanted to help, but something inside Bura didn't wish for it- it wanted him to climb back onto his feet by himself?
Bura's emotions and anger was such a pain, and it was getting harder and harder to control until he blows up at random and hurts either others or his friendships by his constant lashing out. Mosa says that the school wanted to help with his behavior issues and Bura let out a small defeated sigh, it shouldn't shock him that teachers or classmates noticed his sudden shift in behavior and sudden increase in aggression. It still stung to hear those words from the man's mouth. It felt so wrong that he was so wrong and not himself. "so-You can fix me?" Bura asked bluntly as let out another sigh as he looked at the man with a more solemn expression.
And the big question was asked. What started all this. Bura lifts his hand to his face as he tried to keep his chill. Mosa would see he was struggling to do as his eyes flicker from glowing to not. His breathing became rugged for a moment as his mind dug out his old memories, and they brought back the emotions connected to them-all of his fear-worry-his anger- his hatred. Everything that caused this sudden rage in his blood- Bura caught himself in the last second before his enraged blood boiled over, and before he lashed out at Mosa.
Bura shakes his head violently as he calmed himself enough to speak more coherently-"That night-that night of the riots-when those women held Mi-Yamazaki-san and me hostage- that's when I became worse that's when everything started making me so angry." Bura said in a low growl as he could feel his blood boil with anger once more-as the thoughts started to fill his mind once more with intense emotions and want for violence. His bloodlust was increasing, and he wanted to hurt those women once more or anybody right now and make this anger and hatred in his blood spill away into purity that was before encountering them.
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Post by Mosa Ganbaroshi on Jul 6, 2020 15:59:08 GMT -4
There was a little bit of doubt, whether or not Mosa was getting through to Bura. After all, the boy was still grunting and trying to avoid his efforts. He had to wonder if he was just letting his speech go through one ear to the other. However, as he mentioned that others had noticed his issues, the boy did get out a little call for help. Or something that could be taken as such. "Things based on the mental are not something you can fix like broken bones. But, what i can do, is help you with the steps to recovery." Of course, there was a lot more he could say. The fact that every person was very different, and that everyone had their own way of dealing with things, but he was trying to stay concise.
For now, the boy did seem more responsive. Instead of ignoring his question, he was clearly thinking about it. However, it was clearly not easy, his eyes flickering like headlights trying to scare away a deer without hitting it. Of course, digging into your own memories, and trying to find a source was going to be awkward. Especially without any sort of encouragement. Images, or specific thoughts that would help them move forward with each step. However, by the frustration in his eyes, as he started shaking his head, it was clear he had remembered something atleast.
Ah, yes, the riots... a very awkward situation indeed. Students being in danger because of Ishtars weird schtick and attention grabby maneuvers. This sort of whipping into action was always effective among villains. Weak fear the strong, and what not. However, the boy was starting to lose his grip a little. "Keep calm. Take deep breaths. Remember, they are not here, they are in the past. You cannot do anything to change it. But we can move forward from it, and plan ahead for the risks including something similar." The short sentences pretty much had the main purpose of the session within them. He was clearly stuck in that moment... but how was the question.
"With that in mind... what specifically in that situation triggered such anger within you? Was it the fact that your friends were in trouble as well? Was it the villains themselves? or was it something else?" This was already a little different from previous situations. Instead of a situation where the person was trying to hide their feelings behind a bubble like barrier that needed to be popped open, here it was like trying to make sure the boy didn't fall of a tightrope across danger.. If his questions moved him too far in one direction, He would lose balance. A point of anger. And if he kept doing that, he would surely fall. And Mosa wasn't sure if there was a net.
"Whatever you say, might help us find how to make you take steps forward." He was encouraging the boy to walk that tightrope. Keep moving forward, and not to stop thinking about the pointless extra details.
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Post by Burabura Buruburu on Jul 14, 2020 15:24:04 GMT -4
Bura let out a small annoyed grunt at Mosa's words on how a broken brain can't set back like a bone. Bura wanted this to be over, and he can move on with his life and not worry about hurting others as he did with Kiersa. Bura wanted nothing more than for things to go back to normal- but it appears what Mosa is saying this will be his new self for him from now on, which felt like nails on his coffin of a hero career. Bura just wanted to back to his old self, not this angrier and more moody self that's he becoming.
Bura hated when his eyes started to glow- it felt so weird, and it agitates his eyes the way they do that. Bura just wanted things to go back to normal before he got all messed up and irritable and prone to burst of anger. Bura hates how his thoughts keep going back to that night over and over again until it drives him mad. Bura hates everything about that night to his very core, he wanted to beat those women down until nothing there's left of them, and he could move on with his life. Go back to what it was before.
Mosa's words barely registered in his mind, and it only pissed him off- but in a more constructive and meaningful manner than what it was before- Bura was pissed off beyond belief, but he felt solid here at the moment as he took in wild breaths and huffs. Despite the words supposedly calming nature, they pissed him off more- but instead of going wild as Bura did with Chimera, Bura felt more like himself then he was all these years before. This new anger felt right. And Bura didn't feel ashamed.
"I cannot change the past- you are right about that, and despite how much it pisses me off you are right, I need to move forward," Bura said in a strained controlled manner, but now a smile was growing on Bura's face much the same way he does when he's fighting or sparring. When Mosa asked what about that day pissed him off so much, Bura's smile lessened a bit. But he still looked a bit wild now. "Simple, I felt useless and weak, and my friend was in danger, but. I think there was an underlying feeling for the past few years that finally surfaced in that encounter, that I've been trying to snuff out and kill lately, that I think I can't hide anymore- I'm a monster- a berserker, and I think I will finally embrace it." Bura admitted to the man as he looked at his hands, they are capable of so many bad things, but Bura looked up to Mosa's eyes.
"But I won't be a danger to anybody anymore- unless they are villains, I don't want friends and allies to be scared of me going wild- but the villains should." Bura darkly says, as he clenches his hands open and closes before letting out a finally calm sigh as he looks up at Mosa with slightly glowing eyes- not as overt as before, but now a subtle difference. "What do you think? Do I sound crazy?"
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Post by Mosa Ganbaroshi on Jul 16, 2020 9:30:51 GMT -4
In the end, what was important, was that Bura didn't see this change in personality as an issue to shove deep in himself and hide. Many people lost themselves in that feeling. If he felt different, and his opinions were changing, he would have to accept the changes, and learn to work with them, instead of against them. "Remember, whatever happens, and whatever you yourself do, it is a part of you. Sometimes it takes a little while to adapt, but eventually, you should be able to."
In this regard, it felt like the boy agreed, although perhaps in a little twisted way. Letting go of the situation was indeed a step forward. However, he seemed to take the lesson from it as him being 'useless and weak', and needing to grow out of it. Admittedly, if this was his choice, Mosa wasn't exactly one to tell him not to do it. He wanted to sow fear among villains with his actions, but sadly, that probably would include civilians as well. For that, when the boy asked if he was talking crazy, Mosa shook his head, but took a quite surprisingly determined look for such a monotone man.
"You don't... But, you must keep in mind, that violence is not what makes you heroes." He wanted him to know this. "I know you have a heroic mindset on it, but if you fall as deep down as those ladies who attacked you... you will just mirror them." He lifted his hand, cupping it in another. "You need to have that balance. Red horn, quite a monstrous lady herself, was able to do that, and that way became one of the best heroes on the continent." He proceeded to cross his hands, looking deep into the boys eyes. "As they say, killing people is a vicious cycle that doesn't end."
With that... He wrote into his notes again. "Most importantly, remember. You are only a first year. Accidents happen, and this is the time to be learning how to control your quirk induced urges. There is nothing bad about being a hero specialized in fighting. Like I said, former greatest hero in the continent was one." He nodded. "Learning how to be a hero is hard. But that is why you do it for such a long time. You do not need to learn everything immediately." In the end, it came down to him hoping bura had patience. It was one of the most important parts of being a hero, and if he wanted to be one, he would need it.
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Post by Burabura Buruburu on Jul 16, 2020 15:39:57 GMT -4
Bura felt weirdly excited over this new prospect to his personality, no, more restraining his true self. Mosa was quick to remind him that it will take a bit to adapt too, but that he'll ultimately get used to it, that he will break in this new version of himself eventually even if some growing pains come with it. No pain, no gain, after all.
Bura asked the man his opinion that if he sounded man-insane-crazy, and all those other synonyms for what that little voice in the back of his mind was screaming at him that he is. But when the man shakes his head and even gave him a look of determination, Bura felt more confidant in himself than he has felt in a very long time. Bura felt happy-joyous-and any other words that he couldn't think of at the moment of being validated for once he felt so sure of himself.
Mosa validated him but also gave him a warning that if he loses his path of heroism, he will be no better than those women who hurt his friend. Bura nodded along to the man's words and wisdom. Bura could see why people always recommended Mosa to new people. Bura watches as the man talks about how Redhorn fought like he did, and was one of the strongest heroes in Asia. Mosa looked deep into his subtly, glowing eyes, saying that the cycle of death never ends. Bura nods his head and says, "Yes, of course, I don't intend to kill anybody-not now- not ever- Despite my new rage- I still want to protect others over violence." Bura told Mosa with great determination in his voice.
And with that, Bura let out a heavy sigh as he felt a weight off his shoulders- his sense of restraint that has been holding back his whole life. Bura could already feel the renewed strength and determination flowing through him. But despite how much confidence he felt in the moment, Mosa reminded him that he was still a first-year- that Bura still has time to grow and change into the role he wants to develop. That he isn't stagnant or stuck in his path- that if another better route opens up in his life- that he should be willing to take it. And that he didn't need to learn everything right off the bat, that he could take his time to admire the things in his current path- that he shouldn't be so focused on moving forward forever. That here and now is worth admiring and being a part of it all.
Bura nods his head before saying, "Thank you, I feel like things make better sense now," Bura says with a genuine smile, Bura knows he's part of an uphill battle. He now knows he isn't alone in this fight, that Bura can trust and rely on others- at least- Bura felt like he could at this very moment in the lowest and darkest phase in his life. And for now, that felt like the second biggest step he needed to take forward to move on from everything that has happened to him and will happen in his life.
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Post by Keiran on Jul 20, 2020 13:28:26 GMT -4
Burabura: +22xp (110 + 22 = 132)
Mosa: +20xp (1163 + 20 = 1183)
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