Post by Yumi Tasukai on Oct 21, 2020 10:42:51 GMT -4
While she was sure that Yusaku was trying to… reassure her maybe? Put her at ease? If anything it was just making her more uncomfortable and she was starting to realize why. With Yusaku taking in the information he wanted, and offering to let her out, Yumi just nodded and raised up her arms in a way she hoped would help the armor plating slide apart and let her out, pulling herself from it as soon as she could. She… she knew from experience how important this method of contact, of intimacy was important to him but-
“Look. Do whatever you want, justify this however feels good to you… but don’t try and excuse it.” She looked back across to him, a hint of harshness in her eyes. Maybe she’d been spending too much time working with RedHorn or something but she just didn’t have the desire to beat around the bush on this one. “I mean come on Yusaku, you’re there, trying to say you’re getting better, how you think I just disliked all this because I felt you relied too much on other people but… no. That’s not even close. I got tired of the CONSTANT wall of depression I had to fight as your girlfriend. Everytime we met it devolved into you talking about your past and I genuinely find it hard to remember any good times we had by comparison. You…”
She staggarred, pinching the bridge of her nose.
“Look Yusaku I just… I like you, I do! It’s why I agreed to let you see me as your girlfriend but… I tried to make it clear I wasn’t comfortable wearing you, and you still did it. Anytime we hung out when we were dating it always had to result in that no matter how clear I was on it making me uncomfortable. I hoped you’d remember that but… I couldn’t even go a whole training session without you wanting me to wear you, and even when its CLEAR I don’t like it, you still try and go ‘oh well we can walk around a bit like this if you don’t wanna stop yet, or we can do it tomorrow-NO!” She clenched her fists, regretting yelling a bit there but the stress on this was building up from Yusaku’s apparent ignorance. “I want… to hang out with you. I want to be your friend, I don’t want to just… be this person you ‘live through’ or something. Maybe holding hands side by side or something doesn’t do much for you but… wearing you doesn’t do much for me… okay? I just… don’t wanna do it anymore, and the fact that hasn’t been clear, the fact you keep pushing for it… that’s what makes me uncomfortable.”
Maybe she shouldn’t have been so forward but… this had been a thing towards the end of their relationship, and now that he still didn’t seem to have realized the issue? Maybe being forward about it was the only way he’d understand. She did, truly, want to be his friend… but if the only way he could be friends with someone was by, in her eyes, subtly guilting them into wearing him? That wasn’t something she was comfortable with.
“Look. Do whatever you want, justify this however feels good to you… but don’t try and excuse it.” She looked back across to him, a hint of harshness in her eyes. Maybe she’d been spending too much time working with RedHorn or something but she just didn’t have the desire to beat around the bush on this one. “I mean come on Yusaku, you’re there, trying to say you’re getting better, how you think I just disliked all this because I felt you relied too much on other people but… no. That’s not even close. I got tired of the CONSTANT wall of depression I had to fight as your girlfriend. Everytime we met it devolved into you talking about your past and I genuinely find it hard to remember any good times we had by comparison. You…”
She staggarred, pinching the bridge of her nose.
“Look Yusaku I just… I like you, I do! It’s why I agreed to let you see me as your girlfriend but… I tried to make it clear I wasn’t comfortable wearing you, and you still did it. Anytime we hung out when we were dating it always had to result in that no matter how clear I was on it making me uncomfortable. I hoped you’d remember that but… I couldn’t even go a whole training session without you wanting me to wear you, and even when its CLEAR I don’t like it, you still try and go ‘oh well we can walk around a bit like this if you don’t wanna stop yet, or we can do it tomorrow-NO!” She clenched her fists, regretting yelling a bit there but the stress on this was building up from Yusaku’s apparent ignorance. “I want… to hang out with you. I want to be your friend, I don’t want to just… be this person you ‘live through’ or something. Maybe holding hands side by side or something doesn’t do much for you but… wearing you doesn’t do much for me… okay? I just… don’t wanna do it anymore, and the fact that hasn’t been clear, the fact you keep pushing for it… that’s what makes me uncomfortable.”
Maybe she shouldn’t have been so forward but… this had been a thing towards the end of their relationship, and now that he still didn’t seem to have realized the issue? Maybe being forward about it was the only way he’d understand. She did, truly, want to be his friend… but if the only way he could be friends with someone was by, in her eyes, subtly guilting them into wearing him? That wasn’t something she was comfortable with.
