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Post by Hanako Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 10:59:05 GMT -4
all the pieces lie where they fell... ♥ It was about twenty past 3 in the morning and Hanako had just woken up from a nightmare. She feared for the life of her baby, for the life of her man and well she was a tiny bit afraid of her own life. But that was not the most important part, after meeting G in the hospital she was afraid he would get into another accident and she stared at the white four numbers on her phone: 03:21 am. She wanted to call him but that was ridiculous, she was upset about a lot of things and tired and just emotional and she felt like crying, stupid pregnancy, it ruined everything. She cried, soft sobs while trying to catch her breath as she tried not to wake up her aunt and uncle, she felt like seventeen again, a child that could not have everything done everything for herself and she was just like that only older, you would suspect that she knew what she was doing. The dream was repeating on her mind, the fact that G would get hurt again and that she had not spoken to him much after the hospital meeting even when she said it would be good to try and pick up again. She was just so afraid to tell him what she had considered or to step over that issue as if it did not happen. Technically nothing did happen but she did not trust her own genes, what if she was like her mother? She needed him. She did more or less accidentally click on the green button on her phone and called G at 3:22 in the morning. Oh, oh what should she say, nothing, he would probably not pick up anyway, what would she say to the voicemail. She did not know either, she was just quiet and tried to hold her breath to stop sobbing, she clutched the blankets with her free hand. Tears still dropped on her face, on one hand, she hoped that he picked up so she would know he was alright. She needed to hear his voice. |
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Post by G Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:31:24 GMT -4
It was 3am and G was home. He was in the smaller apartment in Musutafu. Since he was alone, he might as well live closer to his 2 daughters. Although even if it was 3am, G hasnt slept. But he also wasnt out patrolling, he was staying home. He was laying in bed, phone in hand, plugged in earphones and just listened to music in the dark. Hoping that would get him to sleep. Although, after some time, his tunes were interrupted by his phone ringing. He answered the phone
"Who is it?" he asked, not looking at the screen. After all he was in the dark and the light from the phone would hurt his eyes, since his eyes adjusted to the dark. G was tempted to see on the screen who called him, but once again, he hesitated and he was a bit lazy.
It was a shame, he was just getting nice and sleepy and someone had to wake him up. He kept his eyes closed as he awaited his answer. For some reason, the fact that it might be Hana just didnt cross his mind. Then again, its not like Hana would call him at this hour
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Post by Hanako Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:34:46 GMT -4
all the pieces lie where they fell... ♥ "It's me." She said softly when she heard the sound of his voice, back home, he was back home right? No longer in the hospital, she felt her voice falter, her heart stop by only hearing his voice, she was kind of glad he picked up the phone, there were no words to say right now. "I miss you." But her lips found words that her heart wanted to whisper while her brain wondered if this was not going too fast, she had after all been the one stating that they should slow down. Words were difficult, words could betray, it was the strength that she needed to be able to form the right words tell him what she needed, listen to what he needed. "I am sorry, I expected the voicemail, I just had a rough night of sleep and..and." She finally sobbed again, she felt so strange in her own body, her own actions not making sense and she did not want to cry, there was nothing to cry about it was just a nightmare, she would get over it, it wasn't real, he wasn't in the hospital, their little one was safe and still in her care...her..hands.. not quite literally but she had ruined everything before and now she tried to fix it when she had no idea how to fix it. "I should hang up, I hope I did not wake you up." Did he even put his phone on sound or was he holding it in his hand, no he might be sleepy, else you would see the name on the phone right? She wasn't sure what to say, she did not want to hang up. Oh Gil, what had she done, her decision was the right one she was sure of that but why did she keep her distance, why did she not just... talk to him. It was like all she wanted. |
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Post by G Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:35:55 GMT -4
As soon as he heard her voice, he went silent so he can let her speak in piece. "I miss you" "I miss you too" he immediatelly replied, but once again, allowed her to speak as to not cut her off. Hana apologized and explained that she expected voicemail, but as she went on she sounded so distressed until he actually heard her start sobbing. G immediatelly sat up from bed. Soon he heard her speak, saying that she should hand up. He immediatelly said "N-no no! You're not bothering me at all. D-Dont hang up!"
He immediatelly got up and searched for his clothes if need be, while holding his phone. He turned on the light in the room, but because his eyes adjusted to the dark, it did sting him a bit. If this wasnt something serious, he would've childishly hissed at the light. But now was not the time nor place for jokes.
Before G did anything he asked
"C-Can I help you in any way?"
He was willing to come over if she wanted. But even if she said no, he felt like he needed to be there, she was crying and upset, he had to do something
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Post by Hanako Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:38:19 GMT -4
all the pieces lie where they fell... ♥ His immediate reply to her statement that she missed him and that he missed her too made her heart jump up a little, in happiness, the fact that she dreamed about him being hurt again made her want to cry, oh god what had she done, would it happen because of her, would they hurt him, she did not even remember exactly how it happened in her dream and that was what made her so vulnerable and easy to cry, of course, also because of the hormones raging in her body but who counted that. She should not bother him, she should hang up, she had not expected him to pick up so now she did not know what to say but he actually saved her by saying she did not bother and that she did not have to hang up and she felt as if she could only cry more. Pushing her hand against her mouth and nose trying to stop crying as to make a proper phone conversation even at this hour, "Okay." But what were words, what were things to say, she wished he was here but she had told him that she wanted to take things slow was inviting him to her aunt and uncle's okay? Was that still slow, why would she take it slow, she needed to see him, make sure he was okay, make sure she felt safe. "I wish you were here." She thus said when he asked what he could do, "But I am in Tokyo and well look at the time, I mean..." She had to get a gulp of air as she was talking and not breathing and trying to calm down. There were so many words jumbling in her mind and finally her lips spoke while her brain said that their first words were enough, "Will you come over?" How bad was it though if she kept playing the game of pulling back and pushing him away, she would understand if he was not keeping up and she sobbed again, she loved him, she just had made a huge mistake and she could never forgive herself for that. |
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Post by G Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:39:17 GMT -4
She wished he was there and that's all he needed to hear. He turned on the light which did sting his eyes. And started to look for his clothes as she spoke on the phone. He basically tried to dress himself up with one hand. As soon as she said the last question, he spoke "Im already getting dressed" he held his phone with his head and shoulder as he tried to put on his pants.
After that, he went to get his shirt and tried to put it on with one hand, he did everything quickly and clumsily "Hey, so.... wanna chat more or um.. do you wanna end the call so I could... get myself dressed?... I mean... I dont mind if you wanna hear me talk" G started to ramble because he was nervous.
He soon got his jacket and shoes. Everything, totally clumsily done as he tried to hold the phone as he got himself ready. After which, when he was a 100% done, he rushed out holding his phone just to see if Hana was still on the line. If she was, she would hear him running and rushing toward her. G personally didnt know how he felt, this was like a surreal out of body experience
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Post by Hanako Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:41:05 GMT -4
all the pieces lie where they fell... ♥ She wanted to apologize, apologize for making him dress up right now, for bothering him, for making him come and run to Tokyo for her, she just wanted to apologize for being an idiot, for being selfish, for everything. But she needed him, she always knew, since the first time officially together, she knew, she could not deal without him anymore, she was like addicted to having G in her life. She did not know what to think or say but sob a little more, trying to catch her breath, count to ten and stop crying. It would not help to blurt out I am sorry over and over again. She wasn't sure if he was flustered or simply trying to cheer her up a bit, did he not feel bad for what she was doing? Did he not hate her for the push and pull game because she would hate her if she was him. She left out a soft but nervous giggle, "I want to hear you." I want you near, so much words, so much force in not saying them. "If you do not want to come, that's understandable." She had to say it, "I want to see you." She would not say much when she heard his breath quicken, the motion of his jacket caught by the wind of him rushing, the sound of footsteps on the pavement. It made her kind of giddy. She herself climbed out of the bed to grab her kimono bathrobe and in her own clumsy manner put it on as well, she wanted to say so much to him, something about grabbing a cab but to be fair, this sounded a whole lot sexier. He was literally running towards her? Technically, she wasn't even that far away, but damn her heart was pounding. She would wait a bit, nervous, impatient, fumbling with the hem of her kimono before she stood up and hurried down, tiptoeing as not to wake her aunt and uncle now that it was almost 4 am in the morning. Oh she was like a teenager again. She did not hang up the phone, she did not dare, she did not want to, she kept it with her even walking down the stairs, opening the door, fumbling with the locks and so on before she finally got it and even if she was on barefoot, she stepped outside on the threshold, he wouldn't know where else she was right, even if she had send the address before, it was still a matter of watching the right number. She literally dropped her phone when he was within her distance, pulling him close to her, wrapping her arms around his neck and she simply did the only thing she wanted to do...She kissed him as if there was no tomorrow. |
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Post by G Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:44:46 GMT -4
He ran and ran and ran. He didnt mind doing it, he wanted her, he needed her, without her he was lost. The phone was still on the line, he heard her speak how she wants to hear him, how she wants to see him. G stopped for a moment to catch his breath and tell her "I cant wait to see you" after which he ran again, and she could hear his heavy sounds of footspets on the pavement
Eventually coming over to her place, he saw her. Hana dropped her phone and he just threw himself there to her. He hugged her, maybe if she didnt have the belly curve she'd get a bear hug. But of course he needed to mind their son. But he was also so tured. She wrapped her arms around his neck. And if there was one thing they both wanted to do, it was kiss. So the two kissed eachother like there's no tomorrow. Sadly, G had to break that kiss a little early because, he was gasping for air and was out of breath for all the running. But still, he missed her so much and desperatelly wanted her and needed her, so he once again kissed her, like there's no tomorrow, trying to make the kiss last
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Post by Hanako Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:46:45 GMT -4
all the pieces lie where they fell... ♥ As he broke the kiss, she could not help but make again this stupid nervous giggle, she did not want to bother him but damn the taste of his lips. "I am so sorry, I mean..." But he kissed her rather rapidly again and all she could do was sigh into the kiss with a happy sound because damn she missed him, she needed him... but she had done something wrong. She broke the kiss this time. "Do you want anything to drink? Rest? I don't know, I mean.. oh god I can't believe you are here." It wasn't fair, how she missed being in his arms every night, how the nightmares keep hating on her, she had to look at him, hands holding on to his face, to make sure he wasn't hurt as in her nightmare, their baby was fine, he was okay? Right, as okay as he could be at this point, she did not want to think too much about it, she just wanted him to be okay. Forget it. Just kiss him again. It felt cold, her feet on the ground, her skin touching the pavement, everything felt good except for that, so she simply dragged him inside, moving little steps backwards while kissing him, dragging him with her back to the house. She could kiss him in the hallway too. Hanako did not want to think too much about it, she did not want him to let her go, that was all. "Are you okay? I am so so sorry, I am so utterly selfish." Even if he had just said that he couldn't wait to see her, at 4 minutes past 4 in the morning it did feel selfish. But she needed him anyway, so she would just accept it for now, she would see what she could do, gather the courage and talk to him, that's what she wanted. |
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Post by G Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:48:37 GMT -4
Hana this time broke the kiss,asking if he would like to drink or rest, but before he said anything she kissed him again. And he kissed her and embraced her and kept her close. He missed her so much. As they kissed, he noticed Hana dragged him in to her house. They went into a hallway and she broke the kiss, asking if he was ok, while apologizing for being selfish
"It's fine Hana. And I'm ok now.. I just... missed you" he said. Sure he survived without her, but he still felt rather empty. Speaking of emptiness, thats what his stomach was as well. He was hungry and thirsty, so he spoke before his stomach did "Do you erm... have a nice cool drink?" he asked
He needed to hydrate his throat, because it did feel rather dry. And he also asked "How are you?" since she asked him that, he also wanted to check how she was. Because she was pretty upset since she needed him to come in quick, she had a rough night as far as he remembered. Maybe she can tell him what happened. Probably a nightmare, something he understood very well. Even he had some sleepless nights
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Post by Hanako Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:50:43 GMT -4
all the pieces lie where they fell... ♥ She did not dare to believe that it was fine, that her calling him in the middle of the night was fine, asking him to come over, to have him come over, running over to her, to just basically kiss him again and again as she did before and yet... yet she wasn't being fair, she was absolutely not.. she should say that, if she wanted the honesty that she demanded of him, without technically saying, then she should say what she was thinking because how else would he know what she thought. No hurtful words to him, only painful words about herself. "I mean I missed you too, but is it, is it alright what we do? I know it's not fair me telling you that I want to start over, slowly, steady, while we-while we get a little one but I simply can't G. I will-I will be..." But her voice died down, she would be horrible, she would push him away, she truly had the genes of her own mother and even if she loved their baby boy so much, even if she loved Gil, Haruuhi and Miku so much, she was a horrible human being, destruction should be her second name, not her alias. "Oh," as their conversation continued she nodded and unlocked her hands that she had wrapped around him and took a step away from him and nodded again, "Yes, of course, soda's fine?" She simply walked through the small hallway to the kitchen that was at the end of it, past the stairs, into a doorframe there and open the fridge to get the bottle of epsi as well as a glass from the cupboard, "Is this okay?" She felt so insecure as if she knew nothing about the man that stood in the hallway of her house, the house she grew up in once she was seventeen and alone. While pouring the soda into the glass, she shortly looked up to him, biting her lip softly if he asked if she was okay. Just as he had said, she would reply in the same manner, "I think I am a bit better now you are here." But it also pulled on the guilty feelings that she had. "But I can't say I am really okay." It would be fair, she felt disastrous about a lot of things. "Do you want something to eat too?" She could imagine you were hungry after such a run, "We got chocolate spread?" If he would not say anything, she would just simply make him the sandwich and ask if he was okay if they would go upstairs, she did not like the cold of the kitchen, she just wanted her room. He could eat there, which reminded her of too many things. First the chocolate spread reminded her of the day they found out the gender of their baby, where they ate a chocolate spread sandwich in the kitchen together for lunch. Eating in bed, reminded her of their first official day as a couple where they had ordered breakfast in bed in the resort where they stayed for a weekend away. She had to tell him, if she could tell Miku and Haruuhi, she could tell the love of her life. Shortly she thought about the card the tarot reader had pulled, really was a happy marriage with a kid possible for her? |
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Post by G Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:52:40 GMT -4
She had so many concerns, and believed what she did was not fine. To G it was no biggie, sure the hour sucked but at least they were together. Later to make it even more casual and to prevent an embarassing moment, G asked Hana for a drink. Hana then left the sweet hug and stepped away, asking if soda was fine. G nodded and said "Ye". He then followed her as she walked though the small hallway, once she presented a drink and asked if it was ok, G said "It is", though when he said that he realized something was off about Hana, something that made him feel bad and feel guilty
G asked how was she, Hana then answered that she feels a bit better now that he was hear. G sighed "Now thats a relief". But then Hana said she is not really ok. "I think I spoke too soon" G said when he heard that. Hana said if he wanted to eat something. Honestly, yes and no, he was hungry but he didnt have any apetite at the moment. "I dont know", still Hana was motherly enough to make him a sandwich. Aww, she was such a sweetheart that just melts his heart away.
Thus after that they went upstairs together. G slowly ate and nibbled the sandwich while Hana pondered. His mouth was full, but when he was done, he would speak "Something on your mind?"
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Post by Hanako Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 14:56:37 GMT -4
all the pieces lie where they fell... ♥ So many thought jumbled through her mind as if they wanted to all be the first words to tell G, I miss you, I love you, I need you. All, one by one, how could she so easily text him days ago but not call when she was basically back in Tokyo, steady back, okay-ish health wise. Why could she not accept that date that they texted about, she would never forget the panic she felt when the hospital called her. How she rushed there, how she... how she... She did not look up at his comments when he asked how she was doing, she did not want to lie, so she said she wasn't okay, she was totally not okay but let's not make matters worse. Basically zoned out she made him the sandwich, not entirely sure what she should answer or what she should say more, she licked her fingers clean before washing them and asking if it was okay to go upstairs. She showed him her room, nothing spectacular, a bit more girly than she liked, she had tried to hide the pain and weirdness of herself, having posters of some idols on there but mostly a desk with a lot of notebooks and papers and magazines on there.
She climbed on the queen-sized bed but did not immediately lean against G, because how fair was that. She looked up finally when he spoke, almost lost in a daydream if she had not made stupid decisions if she not had known. "There's a lot on my mind. Like many things, I want to ask you or..." No, I don't dare to tell you, "Are you happy? With us? Are you still okay with me?" Because I am not sure if I am okay with me, "Even when I make stupid decisions, even when I give you back the ring and walk away from you, can you-can you still love me?" Even if her question almost made her sure he would answer yes, she wasn't sure if the answer would make her happy, he did not know what she had thought, what she had considered, he might have a guess about one of the issues but not... no she could not tell him that, she did not want to break his heart, she, she had seen the reaction from the girls even if she considered their answers pleasant, she wasn't sure if G would understand, would forgive her, because she herself could never forgive her for hurting him or hurting their little one. |
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Post by G Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 15:05:25 GMT -4
Once Hana got nice and settled on her amazing bed, she spoke to G asking him questions, was he happy with her? Of course. Is he okay with her? Of course! Even if she makes stupid choices? Of course!!
But, they need to be honest and speak. She asked him if he was happy. Not if he was happy with her. That was something he wanted to hear. How does he answer these nice and honestly. Well... maybe by saying what ever comes to mind first "I dont know how I feel. I understand what you mean when you say that you got a lot of things on your mind. And why wouldnt I be ok with you? Im still trying to win your heart back. Which I think answers your final question if I still love you" G spoke
He just wanted Hana, when he was with her, he was happy. He just wants to hug her and hold her. And their son... look at him. Hard to think he saw as small as a 'raspberry' as Hana once put it. He gets blown away, thinking that they had a son all that time. It was incredible. And now he was soon gonna come to this world. It was a matter of time. What should G do? How much does he have to change? Does that mean he has to leave the Vigilantism to Kenshin and Yuri? Or does he continue the job so he can be strong to protect his family
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Post by Hanako Hajimari on Jun 26, 2019 15:16:46 GMT -4
all the pieces lie where they fell... ♥ At first, her heart made a loud thumping noise in her own ears as if trying to burst out, shrink and poof away. I don't know how I feel. It made her want to curl up in her bed, bury her face in her pillow and cry as if no tomorrow, which was the exact opposite of what she had done mere minutes ago: kiss as if there was no tomorrow. But he wasn't done speaking. Just like Hana, Gil had a lot on his mind and of course, he should, it wasn't easy, it did not work out the way she had wanted it to work out, she did not want him to be hurt. Especially not if she had been able to avoid giving him that pain but she only held more away from him. She looked up from the fumbling with her fingers, she wanted to inch closer to him.
Her heart now beating so loudly, so fast, so fluttery, as if it just got the biggest compliment in the world and to be honest, in her world it did. He still tried to win her heart back. You never lost it, if only her lips would allow herself to say it right now, if only she dared to speak the words that she wanted him to hear to take all his pain away if only those words would work but they did not. She was hiding something from him that she could not share and instead of saying what she wanted to say, her mind exploded in the pain that she felt, her nightmare, showing him hurt as to how she had found him in the hospital, weeks, days ago, what did it matter. Their little one gone because of her stupidity and Gil no longer wanting to look at her, that's why she called him. If she would give her baby to Meiko, to an adoption institution, he would never ever look at her again. She made a soft whimpering sound, "I can't," Words she had said before, words so different, so unsteady, so insecure. "I want us to be together but I can't, I don't want to hurt you, I don't want to hurt him." She was again on the brink of tears, shook her head, wailing inside her but not making the sound. "You-you should raise him, I just want to see him from time to time but that's it, I can't be... I can't be his mother, I will never be a good mother." She felt her voice falter, whisper words she had to tell him, "You have to take good care of him." Only weeks ago, the day before their so-called breakup had she been the one excited and happy about a little baby boy and did she had to calm down Gil, had they been the one to finish painting the baby room, buying the crib, buying the stroller and everything what they would need at first and now... now she would never see him like that again. |
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