Thinking of You [G & Hana]

all the pieces lie where they fell...

It was about twenty past 3 in the morning and Hanako had just woken up from a nightmare. She feared for the life of her baby, for the life of her man and well she was a tiny bit afraid of her own life. But that was not the most important part, after meeting G in the hospital she was afraid he would get into another accident and she stared at the white four numbers on her phone: 03:21 am. She wanted to call him but that was ridiculous, she was upset about a lot of things and tired and just emotional and she felt like crying, stupid pregnancy, it ruined everything. She cried, soft sobs while trying to catch her breath as she tried not to wake up her aunt and uncle, she felt like seventeen again, a child that could not have everything done everything for herself and she was just like that only older, you would suspect that she knew what she was doing.

The dream was repeating on her mind, the fact that G would get hurt again and that she had not spoken to him much after the hospital meeting even when she said it would be good to try and pick up again. She was just so afraid to tell him what she had considered or to step over that issue as if it did not happen. Technically nothing did happen but she did not trust her own genes, what if she was like her mother? She needed him. 

She did more or less accidentally click on the green button on her phone and called G at 3:22 in the morning. Oh, oh what should she say, nothing, he would probably not pick up anyway, what would she say to the voicemail. She did not know either, she was just quiet and tried to hold her breath to stop sobbing, she clutched the blankets with her free hand. Tears still dropped on her face, on one hand, she hoped that he picked up so she would know he was alright. She needed to hear his voice.